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The laptop's shut off. You're not.

The laptop's shut off. You're not.

The laptop’s closed. You’re at dinner. Someone’s halfway through a story and you’ve lost the thread, because part of you is still rerunning the 1:1 from this afternoon. A tech lead put it to me this way: I know what I should do. Live my life. But my mind is still connected to that laptop.

Telling yourself to stop doesn’t take. So the evening goes to the replaying of the day, and the people in front of you get what’s left. Some nights it even follows you to bed.

It’s easy to read this as simply a brain that doesn’t know how to rest. But underneath, there’s usually a belief keeping it running.

A few questions to ponder:

  • What’s happening during the day that’s spilling into the evening?
  • What might you be trying to protect by staying connected?
  • What are you giving up while part of you is still at work?

The reframe: The mind stays on the laptop not only because the work is unfinished. Telling it to stop doesn’t work. What might: getting curious about what it thinks it’s guarding, and what that’s actually costing you.

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